i can't afford to make another mistake like you

martinikiss @ 2007-04-23T23:16:00

2007-04-24T03:14:31Z

ascorbin

martinikiss @ 2007-01-10T13:22:00

2007-01-10T18:22:42Z

19237699 AE

martinikiss @ 2006-11-10T00:46:00

2006-11-10T05:46:01Z

Nicholson for MIS

martinikiss @ 2005-11-14T10:15:00

2005-11-14T15:15:20Z

art 101, mat 108, com 101, spe 101, his 101

martinikiss @ 2005-11-14T10:14:00

2005-11-14T15:14:07Z

Life must be understood backwards; but... it must be lived forward.
Soren Kierkegaard
Experience is simply the name we give our mistakes.
Oscar Wilde
I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see.
John Burroughs
You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.
Albert Camus
All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on.
Henry Ellis
It is not length of life, but depth of life.
Ralph Waldo Emerson
God writes a lot of comedy... the trouble is, he's stuck with so many bad actors who don't know how to play funny.
Garrison Keillor
Life is something to do when you can't get to sleep.
Fran Lebowitz
Maybe all one can do is hope to end up with the right regrets.
Arthur Miller

martinikiss @ 2005-10-10T23:04:00

2005-10-11T03:05:41Z

it's the end of the world as we know it.

martinikiss @ 2005-08-27T17:33:00

2005-08-27T21:33:24Z

I like Cabrini. So I suppose that's good. Orientation is way too long and sucks though. It's basically over and nothing is mandatory tonight, so that's great. My roommates are real down to earth, so I'm loving that. More to say laterrr?..

Oh and I had coldstone ice cream at a discount today (: yay for kallyn

martinikiss @ 2005-08-23T11:06:00

2005-08-23T15:06:37Z

college tomorrow. so much to do.

tell me you haven't met this

2005-07-08T20:21:16Z

People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. Histrionics also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.

martinikiss @ 2005-07-08T01:18:00

2005-07-08T05:20:53Z

i just keep thinking i can change
but i don't even know who i am
how would i know if i did change

martinikiss @ 2005-06-25T13:38:00

2005-06-25T17:38:30Z

the worst night ever

martinikiss @ 2005-06-15T21:50:00

2005-06-16T01:48:10Z

I am graduating tomorrow. I am pretty sure that's crazy.

martinikiss @ 2005-05-27T08:22:00

2005-05-26T13:04:24Z

Hmm people are funny..and crazy
yeah

martinikiss @ 2005-05-02T22:56:00

2005-05-02T14:08:21Z

85% of men who die of heartattacks during intercourse, are found to have been cheating on their wives.

90% of bird species are monogamous; only 3% of animals are.

A female ferret will die if it goes into heat and cannot find a mate.

true story

2005-05-02T13:48:35Z

You have wings of STEEL. No one's really
sure why, but at this point in your life you've
shut off emotion to the point of extreme
apathy. You are cold and indifferent much of
the time...or perhaps you're just a good
pretender. Next to impossible to get close to,
even those who do never see the real you. It's
entirely possible that YOU don't even know the
real you. You have a certain fascination or
attraction to destruction on a massive scale -
disasters, perhaps even death or the concept of
the Apocalypse. Because you hold so much
inside, one day you're simply going to snap.
Then the mask will fall away, and your true
wings will be revealed. Until then you will
deal with whatever comes your way in icy bitter
silence and acceptance. On the positive side,
you are fearless and immeasurably strong - not
much can crack through your defenses. You
intrigue people, who can't help but wonder why
you're the way you are. A loner and one who
spends much of their time brooding and
contemplating life and death - you are a time
bomb waiting to explode and create some
destruction of your own.

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Words added by myself

*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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martinikiss @ 2005-04-26T22:58:00

2005-04-27T02:58:23Z

I wanted to be that breath of fresh air,
When everything smelled so insincere.
But this taste still lingers in my mouth,
Deceit has ways of sticking around.
And I'm ready to disappear, Vacation seems far...From here.

Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what...We call a tragedy.
Come back to me, Come back to me, To me.
Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what...We call a tragedy.
Come back to me, Back to me, To me.

martinikiss @ 2005-04-26T22:10:00

2005-04-27T02:10:49Z

stupid CRAZY pathological lying BITCHES suck

martinikiss @ 2005-04-23T15:18:00

2005-04-23T19:18:42Z

misunderstandings suck

martinikiss @ 2005-03-31T23:04:00

2005-04-01T04:04:30Z

it's funny the forgiveness that goes around

how do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad

2005-03-29T23:07:01Z

i think it's probably pretty easy.

there's.beauty.in.the.breakdown

2005-03-28T20:01:35Z

no message. no number on missed calls. who
do you ever have a feeling something is about you?
but you are not sure if you are just being vain or realistic..

[i'm walking away from existance]

i'm crazy

2005-03-27T16:24:56Z

my manager pierced my nose..with a ear piercing gun
can't wait to change it from an earring to a nose ring lol
it didn't even hurt!?

i<love3him

martinikiss @ 2005-03-10T23:29:00

2005-03-11T04:31:45Z

i have no time
need the ability to stay up 24/7...

(i may have problems, but they don't pertain to you)

2005-03-09T03:27:46Z

[and i shout that you're all fake...and you should have seen the look on your face]

I'm in a very contemplative mood. I do not think I even have a friend to match these moods I get into. I cannot think of a person who could talk about the things I tend to think about in depth. Half the time I do not even know what I am thinking about. I miss deep conversations. I feel like I have not had one in forever, but perhaps I just forget them quickly. I like to watch movies and read books that make me think to make up for the lack of depth in my life. And I am beginning to think that the only way one can have depth is to be fucked up in some way. So, I suppose completely shallow people are just "normal"..not to say that people who have depth are never shallow. They just do not base all of life, thoughts, and conversations on such things that do not display depth.

[And I don't that you know what you've been missing]

Every once in a while, my thoughts fall upon the past. It's not in the case of missing the people or the events, more the feelings. Sometimes I cannot imagine what I even once had in common with some of these people. And still others I just want to be near at certain instances...not necessarily to speak with, just for them to be with me. As I go through the daily motions of seeing people or talking to people, everything feels farther away each day. Not only the people I used to be close with but the people I talk to now as well. I feel I am becoming distant and detatched with things and it wouldn't be the first time. Describing how I feel is becoming more difficult each day and words that I long that I long to say remain under my tongue.

[being kids and fucking up felt okay and everything we did was wrong but we did it anyway]

Don't we all miss back when? I do not think I do enough fun things. I just want to do outrageously dangerous or controversial things. It seems like it is what I should be doing as a teenager. Although, I should have done more of it before I turned 18...I guess I will have to live out this summer and my first few college years as a teenager to fulfill this void.

[is anybody there, did anybody stare]

It's weird to think about the different stages and relationships in your life and how they shaped who you are at that time and throughout your life. It is like you are a totally different person depending on when you think about yourself..

[and each person I encountered, I couldn't wait to meet]
Okay, I'm done my rant now.

Someone called me gorgeous today, I love that word.

total meltdown

2005-02-26T18:24:33Z

so i went totally crazy yesterday
a whole bunch of things were going wrong
then i was supposed to hang out with my baby
so i'm on my way..
and he's like i got called into work
so basically everything from that day came down
so we ate ice cream before he had to go
and went to best buy
and sat in the car until he had to goto work
because i don't think i should've been driving
so i took him to work
we hung out afterwards
but when we were together beforehand
i think he saw the darkest side of me
and he had nothing to say
because what could he have said?
people just don't "make things all better"